It's been a long time since I made a post, so I thought January 1st of the new year would be a good time to begin again. It's been a hell of a year in 2015 and I have made a lot of changes to the way I live. I am working a part-time job in the retail world (selling books of course, which I am very passionate about so that makes it okay) and it has been a huge change for me. Since graduating from film school, I feel like people expect me to make a career for myself and engage in work that is meaningful and to extract purpose from my work. But I've learned that maybe I don't want to do that. I've learned that maybe my career isn't my purpose. I don't believe that I live to work. Rather I work to live. I don't need my job to define who I am as a person.
Instead, I define myself by how I live in every moment, not just in my place of work, but through the way I treat my home, my health, my relationships with other people, my values and ideals, and my family. In the past years I have turned to minimalism, mindfulness, and philosophy more and more and all these new things I am learning have culminated in a major shift of focus for my life: simplicity. I don't need to strive for more and more things. Bigger and better things. Less is more.
This March I am getting married to the most important person in my life. She has taught me so much about life and love and how to be a better person. Lately we have talked a lot about buying a house and starting a family. These are big things, sure, but they don't need to detract from who we are. We don't need to sell our lives over to the altar of a career to make more money in order to sustain a lifestyle that our society says we should want. What we want is time and space to enjoy our life with our small home and our children. I want to enjoy every moment in life.
I don't believe in the New Year's Resolution. I think it creates a goal that is unachievable. It sets us up for disappointment, Instead, I aim to continue living a healthy life, a life of being content and accepting life as it comes as best as I can. I have goals, of course, but they may take longer to reach than I anticipate. I can't tell the future. All I know is that I want to be a better person, and for me, that is enough. I am enough, today. Today is enough.